After a weekend of feeling down, having low mood throughout
the day, yesterday (Monday) looked a little better. However, my mood was still
pretty low. This morning, I woke up still with pretty low mood. My heart
silently prayed that I would have enough emotional capacity to handle today.
Every Tuesday, I work at a clinic for a few hours. This means I see patients
who may have come from anywhere in life and may bring anything to the
consultation. I prayed the same prayer I pray every morning: “Lord give me
strength to go through this day”.
On my way to the clinic, I had this sudden burst of energy.
I could feel an instantaneous change in my mood. (See people, sometimes it’s
not just psychological. The biochemicals in the brain don’t always work the way
you want it to). It was such a sudden, drastic change that it actually took me
by surprise. Where did I suddenly get this burst of emotional energy from? I
was able to get through work with sufficient emotional capacity to do my work
well.
On my way back from the clinic, I was thinking about it. And
then the phrase, GIVE US THIS DAY OUR DAILY BREAD came into mind. God gave me
just enough. Just like his provision for the Israelites in the wilderness.
Today was a surprisingly good day. And I thank God for it!
I even got to share a little bit of what I believe in with
my colleagues! Even though I was cut short by my next patient arriving before I
could get to the important point that I wanted to talk about, I believe God
will use whatever little I have said. I’m confident that I will have a lot more
opportunities to talk about what I believe in in the days to come. Most
importantly, I hope that all that I say and do will be a living testimony unto
Christ. If I’m the only Bible they’re going to read, then may I be it well with
the help of the Spirit guiding me.
