... i would rewrite whatever has happened this year. yes, i do wish i could rewrite history. but hey, let's be realistic. we can't. instead, all we can do, is to look back through the year and count our blessings, learn from the mistakes and look forward to doing better. i really have learned a lot this past year, as always.
through out the year, i learned to seek God in a way different than before. i had to really depend on His divine strength, as i could not and would not have made it through if not for Him. i understand better what it means to rest in His Grace. to be honest, it is not as easy as some might think it to be. it's really when you're pushed to your limits, far out of your comfort zone, that you realize that your strength will definitely fail. again and again, 2 Corinthians 12:9 comes to mind.
besides that, i was given the opportunity to lead a number of Bible studies. it made me see things in a way i have never seen before. it's always exciting to re-read God's Word and see what treasures you find each time. there were also a lot of things that i learnt from different places about God's word, like reading well-known Bible stories, but looking at them through new eyes. it's really amazing what you can see from a different perspective!
another thing i learned this year was that God's timing is always perfect. i may seem like a very patient person, but believe me, i can very impatient when waiting for God's timing sometimes. and each time He give me things at the right time, i am very ashamed.trusting God is something that i really need to work on, and He has proved that i cannot do things alone according to my own will. Lord, not my will but Yours be done.
this year, God has amplified my weak points in my life, and i can see Him working in and through me in those areas. sometimes there are painful methods, but i know that i will come out refined, and it is because God loves me that He disciplines me (Hebrews 12:5- 6;11). there were so many times when i would go for Bible study or sunday church service and there's just something in the message that hits home hard.
my eyes were also opened to who are really true brothers and sisters in the faith who are not afraid of humbly coming and pointing out things which may not be pleasant in God's eyes. i also see that my patience, if driven to the edge, can run dry. this amplifies the awesome-ness of God's unending patience! to think that He is waiting for the whole world to turn to Him! how painful it must be for him.
one very important thing i learnt this year is how costly God's Grace is and how blessed i am to have received it and not fall under His wrath. as i share the Gospel with a number of people this year, and i see them rejecting the gospel, i realise i have done nothing and cannot do anything to get it. i do not feel angry at all that these people have rejected it. instead, i feel very sad for them! i pray that in God's kindness and mercy, this was just the beginning of their journey in God's grace; that a seed has been planted and in due time will sprout and grow.
i have been to more camps this year and have learned so many things. i am really thankful to God that i have the chance to do so. of course, i get to make new friends, but ultimately, i get to learn more about the awesome God we have! it's actually really hard to try and summarise every thing into a small paragraph, as there is just so much to share!
i have been exposed to so much this year and have learned so many priceless lessons that it's too long for me to write it down! if you're really interested, please do meet me in person and i would be more than happy to praise and give glory to our God by sharing what He has done in me!
i am definitely looking forward to the following year and see what plans God has in store for me!
have a blessed 2015 :)
